Done deal.
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It's okay. Thank you for the message, Fola.
You're right. We both have a lot of work to do on ourselves. I think yours is with trust issues. Despite all we've shared and experienced together, you rarely did trust that I had your best interests in mind. It didn't matter how great everything was. Or the signs and synchronicities. You felt hesitant, and maybe that's just as my fault as it was yours.
Not sure what you mean by another encounter, but you do still owe me money. I'm not asking for it, but you know this debt exists. And to me, it's more symbolic to leave it unpaid. It keeps me reminded of things I need to be reminded about.
Also I'm not sure what you've learned from us, but I do know that you've pushed me away whenever we got too close. Either by being angry, or shutting down emotionally and not sharing your deeper self with me. Guess that goes back to trust issues. I'm not sure what caused you to feel that way, and I saw the full weight of it the last time we met. It was pretty ugly. But, I guess you had your reasons.
Things are going okay here. Second day in camp and I'm about to go to sleep. Food is pretty good here. Just had a margarita pizza for dinner with tons of cheese 😁 Have been avoiding meats lately, too. Weather is nice, job is easy. Can't complain too much.
Thanks again for the well wishes and the message. I'm glad you acknowledged how withdrawn you were with me. I wasn't sure what to make of your text, or if I should reply. Looks like my heart made the choice. I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss talking to you.
There are other things I'd like to say, but I would feel like an idiot. I don't want to make myself vulnerable and not have you do the same. I've always worn my heart on my sleeve, and I often feel embarrassed for doing it. It doesn't feel great when I'm the only one doing it.
Good luck with yourself Fola. Till the next encounter.
David
