Still laying in bed thinking.
I'm realizing that maybe I was the tester in our relationship. She claimed in the beginning that she wanted to give and get unconditional love; and I did my best to give it to her.
And she didn't reciprocate, or make love a priority.
Hmm. Now how does this relate to karma?
I owed her a debt, or did she?
If I owed her, then I've given her all the love and attention and affection I could gather up within myself. I surprised her with gifts. Gave her great sex. Conversations. Etc.
If I owe a debt, then consider it paid.
Now, if she owed me one...
Oh boy.
It's so not paid back.
And it is hilariously reflected in how she still owes me money from our trip to Arizona.
She still owes me.
I'll be hearing from her eventually. And if I don't; then that negative karma will still be on her.
And who knows what that will really mean.
We'll see.
