This morning as I was having my coffee, I thought long and hard about Robin and Tyler.
Yeah, it's an MLM scheme. They want to skim off my income from whatever company I end up forming. There's no altruism there. No real desire to see me succeed, apart from succeeding enough so that I can make other people money.
I suppose this is how the world works. However, I am unconvinced that this is the path I have to embark on. I don't want to be in MLM. I don't want to be a scammer or scammed. I want to provide people with real value. Not selling products that I don't believe in,
If anything else, I am becoming more conscious of how important it is to be making money. I am narrowing my focus somewhat and becoming more ambitious and aware.
The Go-Giver is a fantastic book, and even though it is being used as leverage in this MLM scheme; I can't fault the premise of the book itself. There are valuable ideas inside.
But, yeah. I refuse to be a part of all this. When I return from work next week, I will listen in on this presentation they plan on giving me and see what I think afterwards. I doubt I will be persuaded to start my own company. At least this particular kind of company.
(sighs)
There are better ways of generating wealth than to be doing it like this. But I have to take responsibility for it. I have to honor the vision of wanting to be independently successful. Networking is important, for sure, but...
Hmm. This is something I will be giving serious thought towards. Perhaps my blog still has a chance. Maybe I can parlay it into something. I don't know, though. I haven't been getting many visitors. I do need to promote it more. I really should take it more seriously.
Perhaps my blog is interesting enough for people to want to regularly read. I don't know. I hope so, but I need more traffic and feedback before I can find that out.
As of now, I am shooting in the dark with all this. I want to serve people. I want to provide them with something valuable. Information, it seems, education. Entertainment.
My other blog hits all these things.
The real question though, is how informative, educational and entertaining it all really is? Is it worth pursuing? I need more feedback on this. I need to see encouraging results.
I have these business cards I've printed up a while ago, and I really should visit these New Age places and see if they would keep them at the counter. It's a good idea, but the question really still is about whether or not my blog is worth reading.
That's the thing. If it's not good, then its not good. I'll have to look at something else.
But, what?
I think this is all coming down to recognizing my worth and what I have to offer. As it said in the Go-Giver, the greatest thing I have to offer is my authenticity. And that is what I am hoping is coming across. I admit, though, that this personal blog is more authentic than the other one. I really wonder if maybe making this personal blog public would be the best idea. But at the same time, I am aware that there are so many personal details on here, that I'm not sure its wise to put my life on display like this.
There is no doubt its all been an interesting journey for me. I'm sure others would think the same, and would want to follow it.
But, yeah. This is going to take some thinking. Some faith. If I want to realize my dreams.
Either I get lucky and become rich without effort, or I work towards becoming rich. These are the only two ways.
I have to learn to identify exactly which way I should be pursuing all this. Winning the lottery just means to buy a ticket every now and then. Working is the more likely way of accumulating wealth. I have to dedicate time and energy and faith into whichever route I choose. I need also to boil down my expenses to their most basic parts.
My mom believes in me, it seems. I just got off the phone with her, and she really wants to help me. Again, by putting money into my line of credit without my asking her to. I don't know how I feel about this, but this is what she wants to do and I will not argue with her about it.
But it means that I owe her to give this my best shot. There is more reason now than ever for me to figure out how I may realize my dreams.
We are all put here on this planet to be happy. I need to believe that I am just as deserving as anyone else. That I am as capable as anyone else. That I am as dedicated as anyone else.
I just need to hit the right groove.
Hmm.
Something to think about.
A bit of googling this morning has revealed that I am involved in a scam. Well, at least a series of processes that other people have gone through. Most MLM schemes are unprofitable. And I'm going to keep this all in mind once (and if) I am asked for any money from Robin or Tyler in order to start whatever company it is that they are going to suggest I do. If they are willing to foot the cost of all that, and they are certainly wealthy enough to be able to do so; then I should at least give it some consideration. However, if I am expected to put my own money in, then I will give it even more serious consideration and their credibility will be damaged further.
Still, though. I met with Tyler for a reason. Perhaps this purpose has been fulfilled. Maybe all I needed was to be more conscious of my desire to become wealthy. They at least got me fired up and more interested in it than I was before, so perhaps this is the end of the road of this particular route and now I must seek my own way.
Hmm.
I have a lot to offer the world. I suppose I need to identify what exactly would that be, and how valuable it actually is. Then I can take it further.
I don't want to give anyone advice when my own life isn't the way I want it. There is plenty of other ways of getting advice. So much information online is available for anyone to come in and use.
So...
This is going to be tricky, somewhat.
I'm going to need to change my perspective. I am getting closer to turning 40 with each passing day, and if I don't do anything, then nothing will happen.
Tomorrow, I will turn 50 and not realize where all the years have went.
That is the sober truth of it all.
The time to act is now.
(sighs)
It's coming. Just need to be patient. Need to keep faith.
And keep my eyes on the prize.
I am a writer. I can write. Maybe not particularly well in terms of technical excellence, but definitely in terms of emotional impact. I seem to be the only guy I know who writes as if his heart was on his sleeve. I don't know how good that is, but it's unique.
I just need to be able to trust myself.
And I suppose this all comes down to self-worth. Relationships. Finances. Happiness.
How much do I truly value myself?
What would I be willing to do, in order to express the value of who I am?
What can I do?
Hm. Again, the answer seems to be the blog. The one that I am uncertain about.
Well.
Guess I'll try promoting it.
And see where that takes me.
Hm.
Got to start packing my things up for the flight tonight. Need to get an oil change and gas as well.
I don't want to take advantage of people. I don't want to "use" them.
But at the same time, success comes from people. Usually.
Usually always, people are responsible for each other's success.
I have to remember this.
And work at bringing value to their lives. In ways both big and small.
I've always been a giving and generous person.
But I don't like having to negotiate what I will get in return.
I suppose that is the biggest lesson for me to learn.
To know that I deserve compensation for what I give.
In relationships. Finances. Whatever it is that I am involved with.
You get what you give.
And there is no reason for me to be scared about giving too much. I'll give as much as I can stand to.
And, hopefully, it will be appreciated.
Well, God. The Creator. The Universe.
I am at your service.
