Mmm, 180 reversal on Fola yesterday it seems. Spent most of it texting her, and when I asked what would she rate her day out of ten, she said, "9.9" which is absurdly high. Especially since she had a flat tire earlier on.
I asked her if I had anything to do with it, and she said very much so.
Hmm.
I like her, I admit. Definitely a cool chick. Couple more days until Friday for when we'll meet, and hopefully that goes well.
But she's kind of a leech, really. Just wants to suck out all the marrow out of my bones and take me apart into pieces for her study and entertainment, I think. Not sure how I feel about that. Somewhat flattered for sure, but a little trepidatious as well. Fancy word for nervous, by the way.
Mm... Well. Just going with the flow, I suppose. I don't know if we'll work out well together, but she's excited about meeting me, and I'm very curious and interested in meeting her, so we'll see.
Gina.. (sighs)
Yeah, well.
Stray thoughts here and there. Saw a red car earlier today on the road, and looked at the driver. It was an old dude with a hat, but I mentally replaced him with Gina and imagined her looking at me as we passed each other by.
*shrugs*
Energies in the air, thats for sure. Hard to make sense of what they mean or where they're coming from, or how I should be feeling; so I'm choosing to feel nothing, really. Because once I associate a certain "feeling" with words, I run the risk of making a false assumption and.. I'd be operating on an ignorant premise if that makes any sense. There was an older man who locked eyes with me after I left the gas station today, and gave me a curt nod, for no reason. I was sitting in my car, and my eyes for some reason moved over to him and received the nod. Had to nod back. Yeah, so it may not appear like anything important, but it was meaningful. I'm sure if I stopped to think about it, I could pound out a page of theories and explanations as to why that is. But that would be overkill, and not particularly important, either. I don't think.
Small gestures. Small greetings. Small acknowledgements. They all add up to a nice state of being. A calmness. An acceptance of me as being a person in this world, in other people's worlds; and so forth.
Namaste, as they say, means "the spirit in me, acknowledges the spirit in you" or something to that effect.
Feel like I'm spinning my wheels a bit here, typing without saying anything profound.
Hm.
Namaste.
