I have to confess, that after publishing my latest post, I went back and followed them down to when I first mentioned Fola.
And I had to laugh at how different things are now.
In the beginning, I was hesitant, unsure, and felt like she was using me.
Now, I'm pretty well not as cautious or as hesitant as I once was.
Such an interesting turn of events. What a difference a few days can make, if you keep chatting with someone and continue picking their minds.
One thing I've learned for sure, is that initial first impressions aren't anything much to go by. Or, they might be, but I haven't figured out what exactly should I be looking at.
Another thing I've learned, is again, those words of Paulo Coelho:
"Never place your dreams in the hands of those that may destroy them."
Wise words, Mr. Coelho. Wise words indeed.
Yeah, Fola is my soulmate. Or soul-something or another. I've accepted that.
But, I can't place my dreams into her hands. Not until I am sure she is ready for them. Until I know she wants to make them come true for me.
Today, I didn't get a whole lot of certainty in regards to her willingness to do so. Just a few things here and there that puts a bit of a question mark over my head, in regards to some of the things she's said. Small things, but significant nonetheless.
Anyways, no big deal. I'm starting to get a handle on this letting go and holding on thing that I'm attempting to do.
Not really attempting anymore, actually. Doing. I'm really doing it.
Walking between the raindrops.
(insert grinning face emoticon here)
