I dreamed about Gina this morning. Had a dream about her a few days ago too.
They're sort of interesting, I think.
The one I had today, had her being a cashier.. I think, and some guy sprayed her a little in the face with water from a mustard bottle.
I was right next to him, and I sure wasn't happy about it. I grabbed him, and somehow flipped him over so that his head was dangling to the ground and carried him away. Where I "accidentally" knocked his head into some pole, having him go unconscious. In my dream, I was like, "shit, I hope he's not dead." and I then place his body in some remote area.
There was some other guy, too, that I think harassed her a bit. Dealt with him as well, though not in the same manner as the guy I knocked out or killed.
Few days ago, this one was interesting.
I dreamed first about Gina. It was a little strange, but I imagined her on a message board or a forum someplace and reading a message she left that everyone could see. There was a feeling of jealousy or possessiveness while this was going on.
That's it for that dream, but the one that followed immediately after is the interesting one.
For years, I've pined over Erica Campbell. My version of the "perfect" woman.
I mean, look at her.
That smile. Those eyes. Those lips. That face. Hair.
Those.. ahem.. hoo-has...
My perfect woman. The woman of my dreams. And I dreamed of her.
I dreamed that I met Erica, and she wasn't what I thought she would be.
It was creepy, actually, because in this dream, I dreamed she was in love with me and not only that, but... It was the Erica that she is now. No makeup. Today. Whereever she is.
And the reason it was creepy, is because she had her boobs removed. There was scar tissue there. And her eyes.. her eyes were hollow.. not hollow, I should say, but.. dead.. crazy.
Not like the Erica I imagined in my head. The Erica I want.
The Erica I'd do anything for.
(sighs)
Thinking about those dreams, or that one in particular with Erica, had me wondering what the "message" was. And I think I figured it out.
Erica would not live up to the hype. She is crazy. Irrational. And I also remember talking with her in the dream, and it was awkward, because there was no chemistry. I'd say something, and her answer was something that I had nothing really to follow up with. It was banal. Boring. Weird.
And her creepy eyes.. And the scar tissue around where her boobs once were. She was naked, by the way, and was about to have sex with me I suppose, once the conversation was over.
But I didn't want to.
And I realized that my mind, or these dreams were telling me that I'd rather have Gina instead of Erica.
Quite a big thing to admit to, I'd have to say.
I've always wanted Erica from the moment I laid eyes on her.. in like.. geez.. 2003 or something?
I had, and still do have a big crush on her. I still remember watching some of her videos where she speaks and I loved her voice. I loved her mind. Her values. Her sense of humor. Her faith in God.
But.. my dream was telling me that she wouldn't live up to the hype.
And I'd rather be with Gina.
Crazy.
Anyways. Had to write this before I forgot.
