Just like the title says. Despite how amazing I felt last night, waking up this afternoon at 1:11, had me looking at my phone and noticing that Fola sent me two links.
One was to an article about Jupiter and Saturn, and the archetypal meanings of each; and the other was about facing the reality of the world and motivating yourself to succeed.
I texted her a thanks, and asked her what she was doing last night. Since I was curious about what I was feeling yesterday, and whether or not they were connected to her.
She hasn't responded. It's been two hours, almost three, since I sent it.
Oh well.
I'm going to assume she wouldn't have given me a good answer, anyways.
It's hard, sometimes. Being in this place of having to accept this... Watered down connection between us. It's hard having to accept that I care more about her than she does about me.
Even though he who cares the least, controls the relationship; I am not feeling controlled. I'm just taking it for what it is.
An opportunity for me to remain in my authenticity.
Gotta go. Justin is about to sit down with me for dinner. Can't be typing on here while in his company.
Later, blog. Wish me a good shift, and I'll see you soon.
Doing my best to live in love. Not always easy, but always worth it.
