Saturday, January 01, 2011
another one down
Monday, November 29, 2010
the decimation of the divine

We live in jaded times. This modern-era has precipitated the advent of self-indulgence and reckless consumption.
These are not new words. They are in the back of everyone’s mind. They are entrenched deeply in our souls. They are the source of our ills.
To preach the virtue of self-reliance is to accept dissonance. It entails a severing of the connection that exists between ourselves and the world around us. It neuters the mystical and embraces a cold, almost psychopathic disregard towards those that exist outside of our immediate assessment as to their usefulness.
We take humanity for granted, and why not? We have our problems, “they” have theirs. It is always “us” and “they” never “our”.
Africa is proof of that. As is Pakistan. Afghanistan. Iraq. China. Anyplace situated outside of the immediate influence of the North American way of living; we simply cannot relate to lives so dissimilar to our own.
“They” have their own problems to deal with.
If we were to frog-march the usual suspects up to our collective scrutinty, there emerges a criminal so conviving, so implacable and so improbable that we do not notice it’s presence.
Polarization. The tendency to assess situations through only two sets of lenses. Good and bad. Cruel and compassionate. Hot and cold. Democrat and Republican. Rich and poor. Wrong and right. Living or dead.
Decades ago, pre-martial sex was considered largely to be a sin. We do not think such things nowadays. In fact -- given our capacity for selfishness, we have socially-conditioned promiscuity as acceptable and placed it reverently upon our altars of self worship.
Laws are also meant to be broken. Prohibition should have served as an effective a cautionary tale as any; yet we continue forth, enforcing rules and regulations that are often perceived as an inconvenience that we must accept without question. Our judgement is constrained by an arbitrary boundary dictated by bureaucracy largely steered about by corporations and it's lobbyists.
Polarization is a form of situational alchemy. We grab onto an unfamiliar concept and weigh it’s values against either extreme. If it cannot be categorized as easily as we wish, we can always count on the ego to tip the scales in favour of either direction without due consideration on our part.
This is how fundamentalists are born. There is no gray in a world that demands either black or white. It is what fuels the engine of activism. It perpetuates racial and gender discrimination. It produces "terrorists". An attack on the World Trade Center that caused the death of a few thousand pale in comparison to the floods of Indonesia or the earthquakes in Haiti that has resulted in far more causalities. Yet, our empathy does not extend nearly as well towards a group of inferior beings whose lives we aren't emotionally invested in.
Do you remember where you were on the day that 230,000 Haitians perished? How about 9/11?
My point is, we are fucked. Our sense of empathy needs a kick in the ass if we expect to progress as a speices, much less a "civilization".
We have nowhere else to go but down, if the world continue as it does. Feeding the gluttonous appetite of North Americans upon the backs of less fortunate third-world citizens. Affording more gravitas towards spectacle than reality. Embracing a collective delusion unique only to the Western hemisphere, in which we struggle to hold up the shaky foundation of the American Dream, enlisting and exploiting the aid of those who have little choice but to consent to piss-poor wages and a shocking amount of disrespect.
The value of life is relative to the polarized mind. If it does not shock or stun us -- we simply will not care.
Such is the life of the Ostrich burying it's nose in the sand.
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Sunday, November 28, 2010
Poseidon's Revenge
He stood still. Hands bound in a metal forged from the flames of Mt. Vesuvius. Looking up, he could see the ripple of the sky, a shining sun danced above, it’s rays darting like jagged swords into his eyes inflicting a pain that appeared to mock and yet -- beckon him to arise from his watery hell.
Yet he could not. Both his wrists and ankles fixed him firmly to the ocean floor and all he could do was to stare ahead forlornly. Contemplating the insanity that pervaded his being, swirling inches from his skin as he stood albeit slightly hunched to endure the madness that he found himself corrupted by.
The ocean current swirled gently against his body, a hurried embrace for which he dearly enjoyed. He did not relish the days when his lover’s fingers swelled into a fist that relentlessly pounded him with unapologetic fury. There were times when his mouth opened wide in a noiseless scream, unable to force anything but angry bubbles that darted wildly to the surface.
For a God as he, such impotence of action was a daring blow to the monstrous ego he once harboured. He had felt over the centuries, the gradual explosion and contraction of his consciousness. Folding onto itself until he was left with nothing more than a speck intent on eventual redemption.
For that day shall surely come, he thought. Floating inches off the sand that grated the soles of his bare feet. He recalled the day of incarceration, summoning forth memories strengthened by countless amounts of recollection.
They called him The Lamb. It was he who ordered the enslavement of not just himself, but others like him. By who’s authority, he has yet to acknowledge and subject himself towards. The Lamb claimed jurisdiction of the sea, or more accurately -- conquered these waters using a form of magic that appeared incomprehensible -- almost impossible for one such as he to reckon and properly shore up defences against.
As he stood with his army of ocean dwellers to his rear -- the Christian God looked upon him with a measure of pity that infuriated him. How dare this interloper stand against him with such disrespect.
The memories threatened to engulf him, as they have many times before. Infecting each cell of his body with a terrible resentment and a futile desire to break free from the bonds that he reluctantly accepted.
Over the centuries, he had tested these chains. Hoping that with time, a sharp jerk would undo at least one link. Yet this did not happen. Would not happen. Until the day of reckoning emerged.
So he stood in his watery prison. Eyes towards the surface, feeling the hair on his head reach towards the sky, swaying with the current. All he could do was watch.
And squeeze out a salty tear that blended in with the surroundings.
Had he been utterly and completely alone, he may have given in to the occasional urge to communicate his servitude to the being that had conquered him. Yet, he was not alone. He still had his mind. His pride. His strength of will.
And his friends. Ancestors of a time long past who would sometimes swim by and share stories of surface dwellers, ships, migration patterns. Some have even paused to mock and deride the predicament that he was in. These worms were given a sneer and a narrowing of hateful eyes to which they fearfully absconded from.
He longed for the dolphins. They were good company and have passed down the knowledge of his reign to their pods. The whales also were a kind and respectful lot. Many creatures choose to avoid him altogether, yet these two did not.
About once every second full moon, he would be paid a visit by the Kraken. A monstrosity that remained as ageless as he. A proud and devoted servant to his cause.
The Kraken was about sixty feet long, with short stubby legs and a multitude of foot-tall tentacles that covered it’s entire underbelly. Thick, heavy scales covered it’s back terminating at the brow and revealing small green orbs which passed for eyes. Unblinking, and with a mouth twisted in perpetual malice; the Kraken made for quite the formidable adversity against the half-Gods he had once been to war against.
Yet the Christ was an opponent that the Kraken could not overcome. The scenario played out in his mind. Shards of light permeated the water and inflicted a kind of temporary paralysis that rendered the Kraken inert causing him to float helplessly towards the ocean surface whilst the bounds of Vesuvius were laid upon the master to which he remained loyal towards.
Today the Kraken would visit, as he peered up towards the reddish hue that coated the top of his briny stew. He felt the heavy pains of isolation melt away in zestful anticipation for his visitor.
As the dusk gave way to the thick and solemn darkness, he could sense the presence of something large approaching. It wasn’t quite intuition he thought, but rather an awareness of an abnormal shift in the current that surrounded him. He could feel more force being directed towards the left side of his torso, indicating a great mass that rapidly approached.
Moments later, he could hear or rather sense -- the war cry of the Kraken as it plowed it’s way forward. This was a defence mechanism designed to scare off unwanted company to ensure the forthcoming conversation would be a private one.
A school of fish promptly darted off into the distance as did a lone jellyfish who comically propelled itself diagonally away from the source of it’s terror.
Looking about, the emptiness cloaked itself around him with a welcome silence that lingered hesitantly. Bringing about a sanctity to the proceedings that would follow.
The current slowed, the presence neared and soon made itself known in the form of a black shadow that drifted his way. It appeared as a speck frozen in time, growing larger with each passing second until it stood before him.
The voice that emanated addressed him in a tone of reverence that never failed to swell his pride each time he heard it.
“Hail thee, sir master of the sea. As below, so shall be above. I trust you have been well as one befitting your stature is able to be.”
He had always enjoyed the poetic lyricism of the Kraken, it was such a strange contrast to the frightful appearance that often implied a simple-minded, brutish intelligence devoid of compassion.
“Hail thee, my friend. Come forth. What news have you brought me?”
The features of the Kraken came sharply into focus, the cruelty of it’s toothless maw opened up in what he had now taken to be a smile. The hard, penetrating gaze he accepted as a look of intense focus and an expression of sincerity. His heart swelled upon the recognizance of his one, true friend.
“My master. I bring you an unusual tale of fiery hail. Rocks of a wretched heat that have scattered upon the Earth spreading walls of flame that have marched upon the lands above.”
Touching the metal bracelet with the tips of his fingers, Poseidon stiffened. This was news indeed!
“Do regal me, my friend. To which purpose would one suppose such a demonstration should entail?”
Thin wispy bubbles heaved out of the Kraken’s nostrils as if in a sigh.
“Master, I do not know. The destruction of mankind or a show. The oceans remain unaffected as you have observed. Or perhaps have already heard.”
Furrowing his brow, he looked up. The Kraken’s face was bathed in the white ghostly glow of the full moon.
Poseidon glanced about warily, eyes wide open and sparkling with a great curiosity that has made the weight of his chains ever the more unbearable.
“My friend. Could this be the work of the Christian Lord? Are the days of reckoning upon us?”
The Kraken paused thoughtfully.
“Master. Perhaps that is so. I have swam as close as I could dare, to acknowledge a sight so rare. Bodies as far as the eye can see and nothing more than the burnt embers of trees.”
“Where upon have you seen such things? The East?”
“Everywhere my Master. The East, The North, The South, The West. I do not jest. Cities, dwellings, ports and all the rest.”
“It is upon us!” cracking a wry smile, he could hardly contain the jubilation that such tragedy had afforded him.
The Kraken stared at him with a forlornly.
“Master. There is something that you must know, before you celebrate such a tale of woe. A crevice had emerged, to which something has been submerged. A being you know well, sent to the great depths of hell.”
“No..” He felt the word escape his lips, swimming off into the darkness.
“I regret to inform, the crow has plucked the worm. The Christ that you await, has met an untimely fate. There could be heard a great roar, as he hath perished forever more.”
He could feel the tension in his muscles loosening. A smug expression crossed Poseidon’s face.
“Then this would mean a new God has taken up the mantle.”
“It would appear so.”
A terrible crackling shook his feet. He could feel heavy vibrations travel up his spine, rattling his head as it perched hesitantly upon his neck. Fissures opened in the ground and steam billowed forth. The heat was of a torturous sort, threatening to peel off the layers of his impenetrable skin and he could feel a boiling in his gut -- as if he was being cooked alive.
“Kraken! What is happening?” He screamed.
The Kraken remained unmoving, silently staring forward.
“My friend! Please tell me you know what this is!”
Looking down, he could see the cracks becoming larger and molten lava burbled in between his toes. While he was immortal, he certainly could -- and did -- experience pain. This was unlike anything he has ever felt.
Memories flooded his mind. His coronation. The family he once had. An Earth dwelling wife with whom he consorted and sired children by. The decimation of coastal cities that he instigated with malice towards citizens who dared not afford him the respect befitting a God of the ocean. The ships he capsized on a lark.
As the chains turned bright red, Poseidon could feel his flesh sloughing away. Blood escaped from his body to create vast plumes that hung about like an oily cloud. Obscuring his visibility which dimmed noticeably with each passing moment.
Until soon, there was darkness. And the heat was no more.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
epiphanies r' us
Monday, November 08, 2010
bulls on parade
Sunday, November 07, 2010
the fifty-eight day old virgin
Thursday, November 04, 2010
madness? this... is... coffee!
Friday, October 29, 2010
pumpkins n' melons
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
one of those days...
Monday, October 18, 2010
deja vu

Sunday, October 17, 2010
ARRR!!!


Wednesday, October 13, 2010
fake
Monday, October 11, 2010
back in 5...
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
my brain as'ploded
Vamprist:A person who loves you would never expect anything less of you
Vamprist:Oh I can relate.
Vamprist:I gave up my all for TN
latpack:... she did say she loved me, multiple times and I started to believe her.. but .. riddle me this.. would someone that loves you go out with other guys?
Vamprist:I'm a firm believer that actions speak louder than words
latpack:her thing was "we're just friends and hanging out" but the two guys she went out with, were people she hardly even knew
latpack:I believe that too...
Vamprist:Sorry she treated you that way.
latpack:thanks.. but.. O
latpack:oops.. I'm trying to understand if its "normal" for girls to do that .. going out with guys to "hang out"
latpack:for instance.. would you let your boyfriend go out with a girl who was single if he said "trust me, I'm not interested" ?
Vamprist:My best friend is a guy and we hang out often.
latpack:ugh..
latpack:see, this is what I'm trying to come to terms with.. is it a normal thing to have single, guy friends..? really?
Vamprist:I think so. Don't you have female friends? He and I dated for 3 years but it was never going to work. We're better off as friends. He's moved on and has been dating a nice girl for 8 months or so.
latpack:I have had female friends, but the attraction part always gets in the way...
latpack:So.. this is an ex then? And his girlfriend is cool with him spending time with you?
Vamprist:Yes and yes
latpack:wow..
latpack:and this is NORMAL among people? to continue seeing their ex's?
Vamprist:I mean we're not at each other's house watching a movie or anything. Usually it's coffee or a drink.
Vamprist:I'm friends with all my exes so maybe it's just my situations
latpack:hmm.. see, this is what I had a fight with my ex over.. she claimed she wasnt attracted to this one guy she went out with "as friends" but later confessed that she was curious and took him out for dinner and a movie.. then kissed him afterwards.. because she was "curious" :P
Vamprist:When you're with someone for so long and loved each other very much doesn't mean you stop
Vamprist:Caring simply because you didn't make it as a couple
latpack:thats a good point...
latpack:but what if you just start seeing someone and then blow them off saying "Im going to hang out with my ex" ? that would hurt your guy's feelings wouldnt it?
Vamprist:Your ex is a total bitch who played mind games with you.
latpack:...
Vamprist:I would never blow off my new interest. If that was the case then clearly I'm not all that interested
latpack:but.. you're friends with your ex's.. thats a bitter pill to swallow for any guy in a new relationship.. I'm getting even more confused here..
latpack:if the love of your life asked you to stop seeing your ex's, would you?
Vamprist:If they had just cause in doing so
latpack:what would just cause be?
Vamprist:They knew my ex still loved me or something like that. I had a bf tell me to drop all my friends and I did. I won't make that mistake twice.
Vamprist:But my new guy would have to trust me as I trust him and talk to me about his concerns
latpack:... the thing is, attraction will always be there between you and your ex, with the possibility that he or you will make a move at some point..
latpack:see.. this "trust" thing I don't get.. it's like "sure honey, go out for a movie with Jim tonight, I'll just stay home and watch Cops on TV while I miss you." :P
Vamprist:No not for me. Once it's ended and I'm with someone else I am 100% devoted to that person.
latpack:I really want to believe that...
Vamprist:I wouldn't go to a movie and leave my honey behind.
latpack:So you would invite your boyfriend then? See.. my ex didn't do that.. otherwise it would've been a little easier
latpack:(sighs) .. are your female friends the same way? keeping in touch with their ex's?
Vamprist:Of course I would! They are my life now and as such I'd want them around.
Vamprist:Yes a few of them are good friends with their exes
latpack:wow.. this blows my mind..
latpack:maybe I over-reacted ..
latpack:but.. damn.. I don't know of anyone in any relationship who still see their ex's without someone getting mad about it...
Vamprist:No you didn't. Your situation was way different. Your girl went on dates with these guys and did things she shouldnt have.
latpack:...
Wow.. Just wow.. what a #($*#(*@ can of worms this conversation had opened up. So, it's NORMAL for girls to keep in touch with their ex's? And to go out with guys while being involved in a relationship? What world am I living in? Life shouldn't mirror an episode of Sex In The City for fuck's sake..
Now.. what does this mean to me? Did I over-react with my ex when she mentioned wanting to see those guys? No I fucking did not.. But a conversation like the one above is really pushing me to consider my stance on this particular subject...
Then again.. another girl:
"I can understand a person wanting to 'play the field' at the beginning of a relationship and not committing fully. But I don't support or agree with the yo-yo way she treated you. Wanting you around when it was convenient and then tossing you when it wasn't. Especially toying with the 'are we together' thing is not kind or fair to you. Intentionally or unintentionally, she toyed with your emotions. And you fell for it because you cared so deeply for her. You noted all the odd and unkind things she did to you. You realize that some of the things she did, didn't notice or told you were not something a person should do if they really cared about someone. "