Insane. That's a hundred cups of coffee right there. Cinnamon Pastry, Vanilla Nut Caramel, Jet Fuel, Kona Island Blend, German Chocolate Cake! I feel like such a sensory whore right now.
Speaking of which, I have recently begun "dating" a girl who has been suggesting I act out her fantasy of being tied to a bed and dominated.
Yeah, I don't know how I can segue from coffee to BDSM, but it's not sitting well with me. For one thing, I don't respect women who give BJs (and swallows) on the 2nd date. I mean, what kind of person does that? And then she wants to get into the kinky stuff on the 3rd date? Really? I mean, I'm tickled that she finds me attractive, intelligent, funny, whatever.. it's a good way to boost my self-esteem, but at the same time, I just don't find overly-submissive women very exciting to be around with.
This totally flies in the face of what I once thought my ideal girl would be. Subserviant and willing to please.. Well, maybe I'm completely wrong about that. I need a person with a good head on her shoulders and has some standard of decency that she abides by.
With Kim, even though I had confessed after our second date that I wasn't feeling any chemistry and that maybe it would be better to move on; she throws this at me. A text saying that all she wants is sex. Nothing else.
Should I go through with it? A co-worker laughed about it today when I mentioned it and all he could say was, "it'll be good experience". Then told me he has a couple of girls on the side who aren't interested in anything but a booty call.
Still, would this kind of relationship work for me? I don't know.. But after my ex, maybe it's my turn to be wearing the pants and start taking people for granted.
What troubles me is that I can only see this getting worse over time and I'm not sure I'll keep from becoming a deviant, misogynistic pervert should I allow this to escalate more than it has already.
I may never be able to look at a woman again without imagining her tied down and willing to be degraded. It's just not in my nature to do these things...
But hell.. you only live once.
Where did I put that ball-gag?
