Biblical Times

Today was hard to get through. Woke up to banging from next door as they were doing renovations for the second day in a row. The walls here as so thin that as someone who values peace and quiet, I can hardly stand being here.

Living with my mother makes it worse. No privacy, no independence. Small superficial shallow talk between us.

Sitting in my Jeep at the park and... I cried a bit. Just like I cried yesterday sitting someplace else. In the dark.

I'm so tired of all this. I loved who and where I was. At one point I had 200k in uncashed stock, some gold, plenty of silver and even a little crypto with both my Canadian and Polish passport in hand and suitcases packed to go someplace. Like Mexico.

I keep thinking about the alternate path. The one where I sold those stocks in the morning when I planned to. My life has changed unimaginably for the worse because of oversleeping.

My God does not seem to hear me. Prayer doesn't seem to work. Calling upon the many different names of the Creator hasn't worked. 

There is no response.

I used to feel such a deep connection. Maybe because I was taking better care of myself, staying hydrated, not smoking nearly as much, going for walks, having privacy enough to take a bath in the dark with a book or just alone with my thoughts to let them wander.

Now I'm tense and disassociated from the world. I want nothing to do with it. I can't stand my environment. I can't stand the small talk. I can't stand the intrusions and lack of privacy and noise and being in this woke liberal city where I see two rainbow flags outside from the backyard hanging on balconies.

In the back of my mind the thought of euthanasia sometimes gets entertained. I don't want to do it but I don't see a path forward from any of this. Except if there is a miracle.

I planned my best to survive these biblical times. Had everything I needed. Debt would've been paid off and I'd have close to 90k in the bank to keep me going or to live outside the country. Could've rented out my old place.

Could've, should've, would've.

Now I'm in the worst possible position there is short of being homeless. Sometimes I wonder if being outside in a tent by myself would be better than enduring the noise and lack of privacy here. I just want to be alone with my thoughts. Connected to the Creator. Able to look up at the sky instead of an apartment building that covers 90% of it where I am.

Sitting in my mother's basement on a thin mattress. So pathetic. 46 years old. 

I feel like I am done.

Tried my best. Didn't work out. Lost my spark. The life in my eyes. The smile on my face.

Constantly staring at a screen all day because there is nothing else to occupy myself with.

And I'm at that point where I feel like I've seen enough of what is going on in the world to know that we're all going to be suffering terribly in the coming months and years.

Just hearing about the amount of immigrants coming over the border in America is bad. Seeing the number of immigrants coming to Canada is bad. Immigrants flooding Europe. Even Australia.

I know what is going to happen. All of them are subsidized with our tax dollars and given money for cars and a place to live. Jobs.

Then at some point the government is going to pull the plug. I think this is going to happen when Trump gets elected. Followed by Pierre in Canada. They are going to go full-on against immigration and will be shutting off the taps.

Once that happens, all hell will break loose.

When you are an immigrant in a foreign country that is paying you $2000 a month and giving you a free or cheap place to live; what is going to happen when that stops? Are you going to migrate back home? Maybe. But what if they don't allow you to? What if they close the doors?

What if you don't have enough money to return to your home country?

Crime. Theft. Chaos. Civil war.

It's already bad out there from what I've been seeing. 

I think that is what the plan is. They've been telegraphing it for awhile. Welcome all the immigrants we can get, subsidize them at our expense and then pull the plug.

Then, sit back and watch the fireworks.

I wish I could find a reason to be optimistic. Not just for myself but for Western countries in general.

I can't find any reason.

Politics are theatre. It doesn't matter who gets voted in. They're all beholden to corporate interests and unseen powers that lurk in the shadows that we don't even know about. Anyone who gets into a position of meaningful power is there because they are allowed to be.

Biden didn't get voted in. Trudeau didn't. Dan Andrews didn't. The UK prime minister Rishi Sunak didn't either.

That fellow in Brazil, Lulu, didn't get voted in by the will of the people.

Those who go against what the powers that be want, are replaced/fired/smeared or executed like the President of Haiti or that fellow in Africa who told people not to get the shots because it was all a giant ruse.

I don't think the people can win this battle. This is the reset. It's going to happen whether we have a say in it or not. Some are saying that we should not comply with authority but people are complying anyways. 

Taxes keep going up. Inflation keeps rising. Rent and home prices are skyrocketing. Food is out of control. Car prices are unbelievably nuts.

I can see the writing on the wall. The only way this gets fixed is if they switch us all over to a socialist system with digital currency so they can wipe away the debt, enact price controls and then track what everyone is purchasing. They can put an expiration date on the currency, they can also shut it off whenever they like and restrict purchase of certain products.

Let's face it, we will never be able to pay off the national debt unless something like this happens. 

This looks like the solution to the problem that they have created for us.

Yesterday I was listening to a speech from Klaus Schwab saying that in the future we won't even need elections because the results will be predicted in advance by artificial intelligence.

We're heading into a dystopia.

It's not funny anymore.

I feel like driving to a secluded forest with a tent, some supplies and spend my last days enjoying the sky. No cell phone. Maybe some music and a few of my favorite movies while I wait for death to take me.

Because there is no point to being a slave to this system. I refuse it with every fiber of my being.

I reject this world. There is no hope for us to regain the times we once enjoyed in the 50s, 60s, 70s, 80s and the 90s. Everything after 9/11 has been a decline into a dead and vapid culture thanks to the internet, cell phones and garbage on television, in movies and in music.

There is nothing to feel uplifted by these days. Three years ago I was happy to come across Tom MacDonald and Dax who were rappers that actually had talent and a message to convey. I don't even like rap music but even those two right now are putting out uninspired and average content.

It feels like the spirit of God has left the world.

Creativity is no longer needed or appreciated in today's times. Everything is going to be run by and created by artificial intelligence which can write a song, a poem, a novel and a film script all in seconds rather than hours, weeks and months like it takes for a normal creatively inspired human being.

And people just aren't paying for original human-generated content. Who is buying fiction novels these days? Who is buying music?

I have also noticed that we don't have the big movie stars like we used to. There aren't any Harrison Fords or Nicole Kidmans these days. There aren't any up and coming talent new actor or actress.

Even if there was, the movie scripts are mostly uninspired, filled with woke nonsense and come across more like a commercialized product than a work of creative and imaginative art.

I used to say that culture is a reflection of humanity's spirit. 

Well, it looks like the spirit is almost dead.

I don't want to live in a world like this. I want my seclusion. My peace. My creativity. Love and happiness and the ability to connect with nature and the sky and God and animals.

Even other people. People who honor the truth. Who are smart enough to discern fact from fiction.

People who haven't stood in line waiting for jabs.

The devil has divided us. 80 different genders. Women can be as good or better than men while men are celebrated for putting on fishnet stockings, lipstick and behaving like deviants.

I weep for our younger generation. The kind that hasn't known life without the internet. The ones that get over 26 vaccines by the time they are 6 years old. Vials filled with formaldehyde, aluminum and other contaminations that impair brain function and produces autism and health issues at a rate alarmingly higher than it was when I came into the world.

Social media addiction. Narcissism.

Single unwed mothers all over the place because male/female relations have disintegrated so much.

Ugly tattoos. Entitlement. Everything is all about money.

I weep for this world.

We have been played. It started in the mid-1990s once gangster rap was popularized and rock music intentionally taken off the radio in favor of aggressive mumbling into a microphone rather than producing a work of art that is worthy of admiration. 

We won't see a song like "Power of Love" by Huey Lewis again. We won't see artists like Guns and Roses or Def Leppard again. No ELO. No Led Zeppelin. 

Just manufactured nonsense like Taylor Swift.

I miss the days of the crooners. Tony Bennet, Dean Martin, Frank Sinatra.

Elvis.

I miss Elvis.

He wouldn't be able to exist today. He'd be a rapper covered in face tattoos if he did.

Yesterday the Canadian government announced that gas-powered vehicles will be phased out by 2035. 

We're done. That level of stupidity only means one thing. We are not going to be expected to drive. We are going to be expected to stay in overcrowded concrete cities while taking public transportation because no one is going to be able to afford an EV, a home-charger and able to replace the battery every 8-10 years at 50k a pop.

We're done.

I don't care if the pendulum swings the other way and suddenly fossil fuels is back and these repeals are lifted.

Because it's not going to happen anyways. No politician who wields real power will be allowed to repeal any of the current woke policies unless they are given permission to do so. 

They may remove the carbon tax, deport some immigrants and allow for plastic bags again but...

The agenda will keep moving forward. Conservative or liberal. Republican or Democrat.

Two steps forward, one back.

Two steps forward.

One back.

I don't want to be here anymore.

I can't stand what is happening.

And I know many feel like I do. But what can we do about it?

I wanted to move to Nicaragua. Strengthen my spiritual connection. Maybe work on a book. Help people. Find love.

Can't do that anymore.

Could have done it if I set my alarm that morning.

I'm tired of this God.

Please don't let my life be in vain.

There is no reason to go on. 

Deactivated

I've had enough. Enough days sitting alone in my car distracting myself all day long with podcasts, videos and articles trying to figure out the state of the reality we are in. 

I've had enough of all the horrible signs that are so clearly before us. Signs that I've long prepared for but failed at the most crucial of moments to realize my independence and spiritual progression.

Had enough of not being able to eat the foods I want. The water I want to drink. The place I want to live.

I've really had enough of praying and visualizing and hoping for things that do not appear to be coming.

Had enough of thinking of the past and how good it once was. How small decisions would have changed my life dramatically had I realized their importance in the time I was making them.

I have had enough of sitting on my mother's couch all day long to go and sit in my Jeep all night long.

Had enough of this city. Never wanted to be here in the first place. I knew it was going to drag me down.

I knew being with my mother would drag me down.

And being broke and applying for government handouts and dealing with a bankruptcy.

It's enough.

I've had enough.

I wish my dad would have loved me more. Enough to care about my progression through life and encourage and teach me things.

I wish my mother had not treated me like such a child most of my life. Constantly undermining faith in myself. Making me second-guess my own judgement which I now realize is more informed than hers ever was.

I wish both of them would have given me the support I truly needed. Prepared me for the world. Gave me the confidence I badly needed as someone born with a hearing disability.

Wish my mother was... 

I guess it doesn't matter what I wish for anymore.

Wish I could've hosted Karlee at my old place. Wish we could've drove to the NWT together and saw the Northern Lights. Wished I could have made her time her more memorable and fun than it was.

Wish God listened to me. Wish Jesus announced himself. 

Wish I hadn't grown into the man I am now. Wish I would've bought my own place in the early 2000s instead of being fearful about leaving my mother's home. Wish she would've encouraged me to get my own place. Wish my dad did too.

I wish for a lot of things. Wish for my independence back. Wish my life was different.

Staring at the constant engine light in my Jeep. Smoking cigarette after cigarette.

Eating foods that I don't want and haven't picked out for myself. Feeling sick sometimes after eating and having to run to the toilet to defecate it all out.

Wish I didn't live in a cruel world like this. Not knowing anyone who thinks like I do. Nobody cares about what I care about. Except for some people online.

Wish I was by a beach. Surrounded by happy people. Or at a secluded cabin, sitting by a warm roaring fire with the woman I love next to me sipping on glasses of wine.

Having deep conversations. Listening to music that we both love. Appreciating each other in silence and in between the sheets. Feeling that warmth passing between our chests.

I've failed in this life. I've succeeded in learning the right things at the wrong times.

When has prayer ever helped me? 

When has bargaining ever worked?

Why was it that when I decided to surrender my will to what I thought was God, bad things seemed to happen amidst the beautiful moments?

Why am I so lonely... 

And why am I no longer caring about anything? 

I guess I don't have much of a choice. 

I just remember how much love and passion was within me. How vibrant my energy was. How imaginative my mind worked. How much I cared about people. How much I felt like I was going to make an important difference to the world.

Just like I was told I would, by random strangers.

And by the songs of my soul.

A knowing that lead to arrogance because I was insecure about myself. Didn't fully believe in what I could do. Arrogant to hide the wound I was keeping from people. 

And bitter that the ones I showed my wounds to, liked me less for doing so.

Bitter that the women I didn't care about were ironically the ones that liked me the most.

And the ones that I liked the most, didn't care about me half as much as I did for them.

I'm bitter that I could see the bad things about to happen and prepared accordingly. Prayed every night. Did my best to trust my gut and intuition. Coming so close but falling short.

They say we have to learn to surrender. "Let go and let God".

That didn't work out well for me.

Despite how much faith I knew I had at the time. How hard I tried to surrender.

And... there is a... an intelligence out there. A force.

Something that is beautiful and loving and compassionate and vibrant and wise.

I've connected with it several times in my life.

Some of my happier moments was when I was by myself. On my solitary adventure.

I loved who I was.

The David that I cherished deeply.

The David that has been betrayed by forces unseen.

The David that should have kept himself grounded and balanced in his faith.

Not surrendering blindly to it.

This world never felt right to me. I've felt this since I was young without really putting into a concrete idea until I was in my early 30s I think.

Being born with a hearing disability, being an only child, being without parents that loved me.

Well...

Maybe my mother does love me but... her version of love is... does not match my own.

Love isn't staying with an abusive man for so many years. Kicking him out multiple times. A man that abused people emotionally and physically.

Why did my mother hate herself that much? Who would allow someone like that to be near her child?

I know why because she told me.

It was about money. She needed money.

Actually, she didn't need money.

She wanted it. 

So she sold herself for it. 

And...

Sighs.

It's a deep wound that I don't think will ever heal.

I loved people. Loved animals.

Loved music. Loved books.

Loved God.

Loved living.

Loved who I was.

And now.

I don't know what I love anymore other than Princess.

And Karlee, I guess. 

I've known there was a spiritual war happening since 2020 and...

It feels like I've lost the battle.

How can I possibly recover from any of all this damage caused to myself?

No wonder I feel like giving up. There's no light. No future that I can see other than the long-shot of winning a lottery jackpot.

And I know that if I won millions of dollars, I would flinch spending the money. I would feel... this mix of guilt and gratitude.

I know I would have a purpose. To better myself. To better others that are of like mind and are in need.

But...

It's been over a year of waiting for a miracle.

I didn't think I would have made it this far.

Being inside of a prison of flesh kept within a prison of a home inside of a prison city on a prison planet.

Terrorized by freaks and Satanists who are in Government, media, educational institutions. Banks.

Churches.

I saw the world falling apart and here I am. Falling apart with it.

Not a ray of light in the sky other than the promise of the Messiah's return.

One that I am not proud to say that I am of standing good enough to welcome him with a smile and love in my heart.

I want to make Him and the Father proud.

But.

Right now I can't.

Being inside these prisons.

Can't even choose to follow my intuition. Can't drive to where I want to go. 

Can't even appreciate the stars in a light polluted city sky because they are hidden from me.

Can't meet the sun each morning like I want to.

This hell I'm in.

Earth is hell. My aunt Sophie was right.

I wish I would've known sooner.

God... what are you? Who are you?

Where are you?

Where is your son?

Have we been lied to about that also? 

Should we defer to a higher authority? It hasn't worked out since covid appeared has it?

I reject this sick system.

It is no measure of good health to be adjusted to living in it.

Yet many do.

And many seem to not notice what is going on around them.

But it looks like the chaos is becoming more noticeable. Immigration continues in unprecedented numbers. Inflation continues to rise. Politicians continue to be corrupt.

Money continues to be printed until the financial systems collapse.

Then, the matter of what will happen next will not be decided by us.

But, by them.

Those who have created the problem will offer us the solution.

And I already know that I reject the solution.

I think I am prepared to die. I would rather endure to the end and enjoy my final days in peace and with love in my heart.

But it is so hard to feel any love right now.

I don't want to deal with this place any longer. I don't want to become a dependent slave.

Even if I could manage some traction forward, I still will have to live here with my mother. Under her watchful eye. Not having privacy. Not being able to sit and think without noise or distraction.

To just sit in a bath and read a book with candles and music.

I miss those times.

Pulling my shovel out to clean out the walkway. Getting out to rake the leaves. Talking with the neighbors. Going for walks. Cutting my lawn. Nurturing my garden.

I miss those days.

And I realize that I should have demanded better for myself instead of settling down with the wrong type of women. Should have held myself to a higher standard. Realized my worth early. 

And realized my role as a man in this life.

I guess I've learned a few things. A few things too late.

But at least I've learned them.

Should I die tomorrow, coming back to Earth is not going to be an option no matter what I'm told.

We've been lied to enough. Duality is not what we truly are. We are both light and dark.

I am a man with good intentions. One who has suffered. 

And I've sinned. 

But I'm still a good person.

I don't deserve any of this.

I don't know what to do.

Other than wait.

It's Going Downhill

 There is no worse feeling than seeing a building catch on fire, preparing yourself to evacuate and then being locked inside before anyone else realizes that there is a problem.

That is how I'm feeling now with the situation I am in. I saw it coming, prepared for it and now I have nothing while being locked inside of what I wanted to escape.

Everyday I look at what is going on online and it is not getting better. Illegal immigrants continue to ruin what were once iconic countries like Sweden and London, we are seeing massive inflation coming in from all of the mismanagement of money due to a fake pandemic and as I look more and more into what is happening it is becoming evident that western civilization is in a free fall collapse.

People are believing we are in the end times. There is much evidence to support this but it is conflicting to put together the pieces of the Bible because there is also evidence that the Bible was designed as a control system -- with the exception of the story of Yeshua.

I believe there was a man like him who was... tired and angry and... allowed into his heart a spirit that directed his steps. He attained enlightenment because of that and taught others to achieve the same.

The details after that is where it gets difficult to confirm. The miracles may have been added in to make him into more of a mythological hero but I do believe that he healed people and was able to cast out demons.

I believe he may have said what he said on the Sermon on the Mount but word for word? We can't confirm this. Either someone who witnessed the event had an incredible memory and was able to repeat it verbatim decades later, or it was reconstructed from bits and pieces. 

We don't know who wrote the book of Revelation either. John of Patmos? And his testimony suggested an elaborate dream in which the world "ends" with words he attributed to Yeshua. A DREAM. I think about that and I wonder. How could a dream be that detailed? Why was he chosen to give prophecy and why did the church include THIS book but not the book of Enoch?

In my heart I feel like we are being scammed. Revelation might be a blueprint. We are seeing events nowadays that appear like prophecy is being fulfilled but we forget that non-believers have access to this book as well. Do they not care for their soul as they engineer the chaos around us?

This a spiritual war, of that I am certain. What I am suspicious about is the root of all this. The Old Testament God was controlling and jealous and vengeful and angry. The New Testament version of the Father is not. If we disregard Judaism, the New Testament would be a good book to follow on it's own without the stories of a jealous God asking for animal sacrifices or claiming that Jews are his chosen people when evidence points to... well, the opposite.

Religion has been weaponized against us. We know this because of the 3 Abrahamic religions, only 1 version can be correct. If we include the 1000s of other religions out there, we reduce the probability of a factual account down to less than 1%.

Yet, Yeshua... Jesus... Yahusha,...

Stands tallest among any other character or historical person on the planet.  

But we look at the world and wonder where is he? Why won't he come?

And perhaps the answer is... that he was a man that harbored a spirit that is available for all of us to possess and demonstrate. It was never about one man saving the world. It's about all of us. Walking together in Christ consciousness.

When Yeshua said that "I and the Father are one" it mean he was attuned to the God-source. The holy spirit. He said that we are each sons and daughters of God and that if we put our faith out there, we can move mountains and do feats as great or greater than the ones he did.

It's a very empowering story and even if the character was made-up, it wouldn't take away from the importance of the archetype he presents himself as. A pattern, a blueprint for every man on the planet to follow.

But... my suspicions tell me that he must have sinned. He probably was not a virgin and he may have been married and/or have children. There is so much about him that has been left out. We only get the scraps off the dinner table.

And secret societies likely have a more complete picture of who he was. Including whatever is hidden i the library of the Vatican. The Qu'ran recognizes Yeshua as a prophet which is an important piece of corroborative evidence to include. Yet, they did not accept him as the Messiah and the Qu'ran places Mohammed as a prophet who was permitted to be a polygamist and marry a young child.

There is something not right in all of this. Why did Islam spring up at all if Jesus was such an influential person in those days? Why are there marked differences between each of the Abrahmic religions that depict a God with multiple faces? 

The only answer is that again, one of them is incorrect and again... perhaps it has been engineered to be this way.

Yet... for someone like myself who desperately wants to believe, I struggle at times with these books. I do not see a loving God advocate for murder in the Old Testament, I do not see a loving God allowing for his son to be murdered in the New Testament and I do not see a loving God allowing for a 50+ year old man to marry multiple wives in the Qu'Ran.

And... it hurts my soul trying to find what the truth is. Part of me thinks that we are all God, that our consciousness is connected to one another in a network that could be called "God" but...

If that was the case, then we are praying to the wrong thing. We do have a Creator and it is OURSELVES. We designed this realm. We created the creatures inhabiting it. If this is a simulation and we are up somewhere else controlling the physical avatar, then... we are the ones responsible and we should not be praying to a deity that doesn't exist. 

At the same time, I feel like a Creator does exist and... I wish I knew for sure. 

I read stories of miracles. Of a woman lifting a car off of a child that is trapped beneath is and I wonder if it wasn't just her that did that on her own or was it God that gave her the strength?

We have so much untapped potential within ourselves. I personally have experienced many odd things that point to this being a kind of simulation that can be altered and shifted around with our consciousness. Individually and collectively.

If enough people believe that the end times are here, then it theoretically should unfold as they imagine it to. Exactly like the book of Revelation.

Yet, there is... the possibility that a nefarious group of controlled actors who do not believe in religion are taking us all over while we sit about hoping and praying that a savior will arrive and save us.

Instead of taking action ourselves and realizing that God has always been here with us because he IS us.

Everyone is God. Everyone has a responsibility to preserve this creation and rid it of evil.

No, voting will not fix this issue. The cult has deeply imbedded itself at all levels. In religion, in corporations, in entertainment, in politics and medical institutions. 

We've already been taken over. We've already allowed for this to go too far.

At the same time, how could we be responsible? We trusted the media to report accurate news and for them to hold politicians accountable. Yet, there no longer is any accountability and all news organizations have been captured. 

Justice has been perverted as well as education.

If we had one problem to deal with, that would be simple to remedy if enough took it seriously.

Except we have multiple issues going on right now. We cannot fix the media because it is owned by corporations which are then funded by government who are owned by corporations and backed by the military and judicial system which all goes up to central banks and the private shareholders of places like the Federal Reserve.

We cannot fix our educational system because it is funded by the government which is... you get the idea... captured by other powers that are difficult if not impossible to unseat because they are not elected and they are nameless.

The only solution we have left is a miracle. A true and genuine miracle.

I imagine that the next presidential election will be where the pendulum swings from the left to the right. From liberal to conservative and people will rejoice. Thinking that the problem is solved.

It won't be. There are no political solutions for a rigged and captured system.

We may be given the appearance of a change and we may see mass deportations or lowering of taxes or whatever but ultimately, it is still corrupt. It will still be the beast system.

So...

This is an unfixable issue unless it all comes down and we rebuild from the ground up. Implementing the lessons we've learned to make sure this doesn't happen again.

Unfortunately... I don't know if we'll get that chance without a catastrophe happening.

What would stop all of the corruption and begin the healing process?

The arrival of Yeshua in the clouds? A single man or entity?

An upgrade in human consciousness that affects every man woman and child?

A move to a blockchain AI-managed model that corrects all the flaws of the political system and runs the entire world by itself? Organizing everything efficiently? Making all the right decisions without human involvement? Giving us all universal basis income?

None of those events is going to change anything will it? Will our children be able to buy themselves a home in any of those scenarios presented? 

Will all immigrants be deported? Will places like Ireland be restored to their former glory? Will housing prices in Australia magically drop and all debt is forgiven?

I don't know. What I do know is that even if those things happen, people are still going to have a hard time. Many are going to be homeless, many are going to take their own lives, many will struggle.

I want to say that I see a positive scenario but I am having trouble imagining one. The Nesara/Gesara angle sounds promising but will that happen? Could it happen?

And even if this happens, why would anyone... say a contractor, would want to work for wages again? Why not retire? Who will build homes? Who will clean washrooms? Who would ever want a cubicle job doing something that they hate?

Even if this happens and all debt is forgiven, I would still be here living with my mother. 

I would still question reality. Are the ones committing evil against us are going to be held accountable? Will they be tried for treason and put to death?

How would the corruption in the justice departments be mitigated? How would something like free energy devices be distributed? Think of the potential danger that free energy could cause in terms of weaponry or even economic damage as it puts multiple industries out of business?

There does not seem to be a solution to any of this. 

If there is one, I would say that AI has to run the show and develop a fair system on its own but we know how reliable computers and algorithms are. I have little faith in a system that can only think in binary terms.

What would religion look like in the future? Will it even exist? Dismissed away as unnecessary and barbaric? Possibly a threat to human unity?

I see a collapse coming and I do not see a safety net. If they crash the financial system and we all are absolved of debt and CBDCs are implemented that track every one of our purchases; we will then be in a different kind of trouble.

We would give away the last of our freedom for security. We would give away all of our power to AI or the "powers that be" who are pulling the strings behind everything going on. Including the AI system itself.

I think we are done as a race. I don't want to say this with certainty but I do not think we should move into a future where we give away the last of our freedom in exchange for whatever utopia is presented to us.

How can someone live off of the land, off-grid, grow their own food and NOT have to pay taxes or anything to the government? Assuming they can even afford to buy that land, the equipment needed and secure their independence.

The natural way for us to be is in tribal cultures. Forget diversity. Groups of like-minded individuals in small numbers that look after one another.

We cannot survive if we are divided. By race, by religion, by gender, by economics.

Revelation says an end will come to all this. An END. Not a new beginning. At least not on planet Earth.

Somewhere else will be a new beginning.

Then again... We cannot allow evil to win this and yet it looks like they are winning.

Sort of.

As many of us can live in truth and the numbers are on our side, politics continue to operate as it does. With corrupt/pre-selected politicians who are backed by lobbyists with deep pockets working for corporations that are owned by one or two entities that are then owned by central banks who are owned by private shareholders that nobody knows about.

If a bright young idealistic individual wishes to change the world through politics, they will become a target. Assuming they can even win the position they are campaigning for. In a rigged system.

We saw what happened to Kari Lake and Trump and Bolsonaro.

We know the power that the media wields. And corporations. And banks.

A system that is designed to favor technocratic rich bastards is unlikely to reform itself no matter who gets into office.

Upon the return of Christ it is said that every knee shall bow.

But...

There will be disbelievers. How will any version of Christ persuade them? 

We saw what they did to him last time he was here.

We know there were disbelievers. High priests were threatened by him and... had him killed.

The only thing I can think of is that his power has to be undeniable. It has to come through the television and laptop screens. It has to be able to get by censorship and suppression.

It has to be experienced by the world, not just a small group of people.

If Jesus returns from the clouds he would have to land somewhere prominent. Times Square New York. Perform undeniable miracles. Be bulletproof. 

One would only have to look into his eyes to know the truth of who he is.

Which is why I struggle with this idea. 

And the tribulation makes sense. Which we haven't gone through yet and perhaps are already in.

But at the end of tribulation... many will be killed in his name.

Who then would be left?

And why would they want to continue living in such a goddless world?

And I said to him, “Sir, you are the one who knows.” Then he said to me, “These are the ones who died in the great tribulation. They have washed their robes in the blood of the Lamb and made them white. - Revelation 7:14

I cried earlier today at the park sitting in my Jeep. I thought about some of this. I have love for certain people that I follow on YouTube and Twitter but...

So many of us are screwed. So many are homeless and the number keeps growing.

The immigrants keep coming.

The senseless wars keep continuing.

The politicians are still corrupted and controlled.

And I still live with my mother. I cried asking the Father for help. 

I need to leave this place.

I want my last days to have some happiness in them.

I cannot find happiness here.

I still dream of the reality I wish to manifest. All the things I need want and desire.

But at some point... I may have to swallow the bitter pill.

And accept that I have been betrayed by that which I have prayed towards for most of the nights of my life since I was six years old.

Perhaps I had the wrong idea all along about what I believed in.

I don't want to accept that.

I want love in my life. Truth in my soul. Compassion and beauty in my heart. Justice being served and upheld and prosperity for myself and others.

I want those things. I desire those things. I NEED those things.

They are non-negotiable.

Please Yahuah.

Please come.

Save us from all this. 

Death is not the end.

A Look Back at My Earliest Posts

I can't believe I have been posting on Blogger for nearly 20 years now. 

I have to say while reading my earliest posts is that I'm embarrassed by some of them. I was tempted to delete a few because I didn't like the spirit that I wrote them in. This arrogant kind of know-it-all style with frequent swearing.

I've come a long ways since. I realize that those early years I was insecure and didn't know how to express myself very well. Didn't understand the value of humility and walking softly while carrying a big stick.

What I mean by that is I had a voice that I expressed too harshly at times. The world was in that state at the time where shock came through when saying provocative things. It got people's attention.

I'm glad I'm no longer like that. I hardly ever use profanity these days. It was harsh and jarring but... 

That's what people were like back then. Every other word was the F word. Especially where I worked in the trades.

I find it interesting that in the past... maybe five years, people have slowed down considerably in using profanity to get their point across. Yes, it grabs attention but is also a reflection of the coarseness of one's character.

As an immature young adult, I had no idea of how to deal with the world. 

Still don't, it seems.

I miss how I was a few years ago. Filled with life and energy and optimism because I was doing well in the markets and was on my way to removing debt that I've carried for almost ten years.

At the same time, losing most of what I've collected over the years has instilled in me a sense of anti-materialism. I still love learning, I still enjoy beautiful things but... even if I had a million dollars today, I wouldn't splurge on expensive and needless items like a Lamborghini or buy a six bedroom house.

My views have changed in some respects. Others have remained the same. Such as loving relationships being the most valuable thing one can hope to have in this world. Seeking truth. Admiring beauty and being surrounded by beautiful things. Having compassion for others and helping get them through whatever tough situation they are in. Finding pride and satisfaction in one's accomplishments.

Keeping quiet and humble. Trying to avoid coming across as an authority although I do know quite a bit about certain things.

There's always someone better than me out there. Always. More intelligent, more good looking, more wealthy, more articulate, more compassionate, charming, spiritual, etc.

One of my earliest posts had to do with the death of my cat Fluffy. That one hit hard for me. I remember spending four years afterwards being depressed without realizing it.

Loved that little guy. 

Everything lives and everything dies, though.

Including the image of who we think we were and who we are now.

Not everyone transforms themselves or grows into adulthood with a mature head on their shoulders.

Especially in a society that prioritizes adolescent behavior and pursuits.

What I wouldn't give right now to be living in a cabin, being self-sufficient and sharing it with the woman I love. A fellow hermit herself.

It's a shame that I could not have found the right lady for me in those early years of mine. What a difference that would have made. All that wasted energy on dating and dating apps and being with the wrong type of women would've gone towards better things to focus on and deal with.

My spirit... my soul has always been sensitive. I protected my vulnerability through an inflated ego. Pay attention to this, not that is what I subconsciously projected. Growing up hard of hearing made such a construction necessary to have to deal with people in this world who didn't see things like I did.

I've had more than a few nights where I cried to myself, wishing for the "one" to appear. Someone who is a lot like me.

But... it seems that when I'm vulnerable with another, I get taken advantaged of. When I'm contained and collected and secretive, I get people drawn towards me.

I suppose the lesson is to... be careful about who you share your energy with. Not everyone appreciates it. Not everyone reciprocates. Not everyone sees the world like you do or shares your values.

I've felt like a fish out of water for most of my life. Just being born with a hearing disability does that. It's immediately made obvious from an early age that I was different than everyone else.

The innocence we've had as children gets challenged by the world we live in. The movies we see, the music we listen to, how we are educated, how we deal with conflict. Some people develop strategies to protect that inner-child of theirs and others push that innocence aside because it no longer serves them.

I've kept my inner-child alive for a very long time. He would awaken whenever I'd visit flea markets or watch a good movie or listen to a great song or being around animals.

It's a shame that this world has warped the souls of many to no longer preserve and value the wide-eyed sense of wonder and innocence we once possessed as kids.

We don't encourage creativity and individualism much these days. Those days of dreaming to become a rock star or a best-selling author are behind us. 

One of my earlier posts talked about the excitement I had when Guitar Hero came out. It was a videogame where you played this plastic guitar along to your favorite songs, giving that feeling of being a rock star although it didn't teach you how to actually play the instrument. We don't have that... kind of game around anymore. Kids prefer Minecraft it seems. 

Sighs. 

Creating a better world and retaining the purity of our childlike innocence has a lot to do with the environment we are placed in. Once we graduate from school, we are expected to join the rat race and follow the pattern of waking up, commuting, coming home exhausted and then distracting ourselves with entertainment. Do this enough times in a mediocre job and that spirit eventually gets covered over and excused away because of adult "responsibilities".

Even something like Disneyland nowadays has been corrupted. As a child, it was exciting to visit an amusement park and to consume what we once thought was wholesome family entertainment but now longer is. We now have men dressing up as princesses and Disney films are filled with propaganda that is ingeniously delivered.

The trend nowadays is obvious. Spoil the innocence of our children so that they will not be tapping into that bright spark within themselves.

I did not know that Walt Disney, Jack Parsons and Werner Von Braun were all buddies until recently. No wonder stuff like this was inserted in some of the branding:

And with movies like Frozen, there are no need for heroic men to save the day or do anything because women have got it all handled.

Comic books today weren't like the ones I grew up with. Calvin & Hobbes, Dick Tracy, Richie Rich, Archie. The Far Side. They're gone and replaced with more mature comics and animes.

I used to love reading the Saturday newspaper because of the colored versions of all of my favorite comic strips. Recently I looked at a paper and was appalled at how boring and non-sensical most of the comics were. There's no imagination or wonder to any of them. Nothing worth smiling about either. No clever puns or anything witty.

And no heart to them either. 

The old world is gone. Along with Blockbuster Video, cartridges in gaming consoles, CDs.

All digital. All designed by committee. 

Souless.

Commodified.

I didn't mean to go into a negative direction with this post but as lover of vintage and old things, history has shown how important it is to protect our children from the influences of the adult world. We used to do it through toys and even toys nowadays has lost that innocence.

How did we go from this:

To this?

Isn't that kind of absurd? I mean, a car for a kid to drive around in is pretty cool but look at the design and how its prepping them up for a materialist lifestyle once they're older.

And the movies for them haven't changed in the good ways either. More geared towards ADHD and those with lowered attention spans.

And political correctness.

Well...

I don't think we can expect to see a return to how things once were. Bringing that innocence about and childlike wonder we once celebrated is going to take some effort to pull off in the world we now live in.

I feel bad for our kids.

I feel bad for everyone.

Something Wicked This Way Comes

Wasn't a great day, been a long while since I had one.

The social assistance people sent an email this morning asking for my bank statements saying that the ones I got from the bank aren't valid and neither are screenshots from the mobile app.

What am I supposed to do? I drove out to the office and asked the guy there about this situation. Showed him my statements and he was puzzled as to why they were rejected. Said I should call the person who sent me that email and I can't get through. Nothing but voicemail. Have an "appointment" for a phone call on Friday at 845am. 

I'm tired of this. I don't know if I can make my bankruptcy payment. I'm almost out of money.

What happens when you don't make those payments? You don't get discharged from bankruptcy, that's what happens.

They can't get blood from a stone but... 

I'm tired of this. This situation that I tried my best to prevent. 

Tired of the world. Saw a guy at Tim Hortons today who complained about the people giving him a wrong order, they fixed it and then he returned while I was in line again saying it was wrong.

People seem so... careless and unfriendly these days. At Northgate mall I felt like an alien. So many people there were black and women were wearing hijabs.

Tired. So tired.

I don't belong here.

Don't want to be here.

JFK died today. I watched a stream about it and the guys were discussing a theory saying that it was all staged and fake. Said the Zapruder film was edited and that "squibs" and prosthetics were used to make it look like his head blew off.

It doesn't matter what the explanation is. It's not Lee Harvey Oswald. It's evil, plain and simple.

An evil that has infiltrated our world and seems to only be getting stronger.

With the more immigration we get here, the less people are going to be able to band together. Different race, different ideologies, different culture. Not much common ground to bond on.

We're being wiped out. Not just the whites or the multi-generational Canadian families but eventually the migrants will be suffering once the government decides to lower or pull support for them.

I don't find much optimism in this world. I feel like an alien. Can't talk to my mother about anything because she's on some other level of awareness that is uninterested in discussing the deeper things about this reality. She's perfectly content with watching her tv all day and buying the cheapest food she can find which ends up getting wasted and thrown out anyways because she buys too much and makes too much all at once.

Karlee is gone. Haven't heard from her in over a month. 112 days since she left.

There's no point to any of this.

And this world isn't getting better, it's becoming worse. Prices are still going up, more immigration is coming in and...

It's all garbage. There is not a single politician that is going to fight for us. Even if they could, they wouldn't be able to go against the will of the shadowy cabal that runs all things. The central banks and those above them who dictate policies and goals will not allow a "politician" to do anything that would harm their objectives.

Even if we swing from liberal to conservative, the plan continues. It would be a brief letting out of a pressure relief valve and the damage has already been done to us and our economy and way of life.

There are so many people online talking about "the end times" and feel strongly that we are in it. Others like David Wilcock thinks we are heading towards an ascension event.

The Bible also says that he who endures to the end of all this shall be saved.

I don't know what to believe anymore. I just know that I can't get through this without serious help. Some miracle. Some reason to hope and believe.

All I see is a fake world with fake people pretending that everything is normal.

There are still good and aware folks out there, that I know. Some are even vaccinated.

But...

So many are still unaware and uncaring. Maybe they don't want to face the ugliness of what is happening and prefer to ignore it.

I don't know anymore.

I just want out.

I see stuff like this happening in New York and I'm... tired of being worried for people. 

Draconian censorship laws and a law that grants authority to remove anyone for any reason and detain them in a camp without due process and allowing them to insert substances 

It sounds so crazy because it is. Just as crazy an idea to inject as many people worldwide for something that had less than a 1% fatality rate.

This world isn't going to get better. There are no political solutions to any of this because the politicians represent their own interests above ours. They are selected and not elected. Nobody voted for those censorship bills in New York, Canada, Australia and other places.

By nobody, I mean the general public.

And it doesn't seem like anyone cares that this is all happening. Life goes on as it always has with the government in the background calling the tune that we are expected to dance to.

They can print money out of thin air and solve so many issues but they won't. It's all about keeping us slaves in check, Wake up, go to work, come home and eat dinner, watch tv, go to sleep and do it all over again day in and day out waiting for the weekend.

There has to be a better way to live than this.

Humanity... either deserves this or it doesn't. If less than 20% of the population cares about truth, justice, compassion, beauty, love and prosperity then we are not only a tiny minority but our hindrances is with the rest of the 80% who prefer distraction and apathy.

I'm not one to judge but... history has shown us to be not much better than cattle. 

There's a lot of good people in this world. Children deserve better than to grow up being indoctrinated and assimilated into group-think.

Still, good people aren't honoring the truth as much as they should. They aren't exemplifying certain values and encouraging their children to think for themselves and educating them on how the world really works.

It feels like we're all in a river and so many have decided to flow along with it. A few are clinging to rocks and swimming the other way. The mavericks and rebels and free-thinkers.

These are sad times. The noose is getting tighter and a point of no return has probably been reached.

Short of a worldwide EMP or Carrington Event, I don't know what the solution to any of this would be except to promote awareness and assist in deprogramming people.

Anyways...

Something wicked this way comes. I don't think we've seen the worst of it yet.

But we're heading there.

Shame it turned out like this.

Call Upon Thy Name

It felt special today somehow. I'm not sure how to describe it.

It didn't start great. Got a call from some annoyed-sounding fellow about the social assistance I applied for but I missed it and couldn't call him back without getting the voicemail.

But... It still felt like something was with me today. Still is as I write this. A sensation in my chest.

A presence.

Or perhaps my spirit is stirring. I don't know. I found myself less irritated today as well and my faith in things working out has went up a few notches.

It's not strong enough for me to feel conclusive about any of it but I think back to the past when I had similar sensations and this feels like the beginning of some of the more powerful experiences I've gone through.

Berwick today talked about the end of the world possibly being on November 23rd. I have my doubts obviously as I've seen so many dates come and go. I also listened to a video on Raised by Giants where the people on the stream talked about the energetic disturbances they were feeling and speculating on what was going on.

Maybe that is what I am feeling. An energetic shift.

I took some time to go over my list of needs, wants and desires at the park today hoping this presence will receive the words I was speaking. 

I'm not sure what will happen but I've honestly genuinely sincerely have had enough of living here with my mother. We are not meant to live together. She is much too different than I am. 

Let's say the end is imminent. Well, I guess that solves all the problems of digital enslavement we're experiencing wouldn't it?

I wish I could say that nobody wants to be enslaved but sadly, most people on the planet are entirely clueless about what would happen when everything goes digital. Although a lot of it already is, from debit to credit cards and paying by phone. All that has to be done is to join all of our documentation and social media, passports, etc into a single consolidated identity.

And let's be honest, a lot of people are going to be happy with that convenience. They'll find facial recognition even more convenient. You wouldn't have to take a wallet with you anywhere.

Just the black scrying mirror. The one that knows your location at all times. With a battery that can't be removed.

So... a lot of the world is just going to shrug their shoulders and go along with all this. What choice will they have? And as wonderful as it may be at the start, it'll eventually have more and more restrictions applied as time goes on. Carbon credits will be limited. Certain item purchases will be limited. Travel may be restricted. 

Not at first but eventually it will be and people will not have a choice because cash will be phased out. It already is.

And we'll be owned by guys like these:

It won't happen all at once of course, but future generations who have not known of a time before the internet aren't going to have a clue how things were better off without it.

I remember how excited I was as a teenager to be able to log into Bulletin Board Services (BBS) with my modem over a telephone line and could message people as well as download files and games.

I met Jerry that way, a friend of mine who then registered along with me at NAIT a few years after we found each other on a BBS.

And Stacey and Jaclyn. 

But who would've known it would've come to evolve into what it is now? 

I'm sure the controllers knew.

It was all planned from the beginning. There is no better way to enslave the planet than to get everyone dependent on a product or service and then make it impossible to live life without it.

But it seems like there is a spiritual choice to all of this. A lot of people like myself do not want to go ahead with any of whats to come. Imagine living in nature, off-grid, becoming self-reliant and meeting people in person rather than online.

Yes, our need for socialization has been weaponized against us through technology but... 

The human consciousness network is still operable. The vibrational frequencies of other people can be picked up and gravitated towards.

I believe if two people who are a vibrational match for one another can tune into their sensitive nature they could follow the tug of intuition to cross paths. I've personally experienced this, although it was done over the internet so in real life it might be more difficult to pull off.

I think it also works with our spiritual nature and we can attract spirits that resonate with our energy such as it is that has felt for me recently.

Not going to be much of a blog entry today. I think I want to spend the rest of my evening feeling into this energy. 

It seems important to acknowledge.

And time is running short.

All options are on the table.

Dark Monday

As the the title says, it felt pretty bleak today.

Finished filing for social assistance at least. Hated myself for doing it. Asking the government for money is another low point in my life. I don't want money from the government even though they've been stealing it from us for decades. The government can screw themselves for all they've done to us.

Plenty of money to send off to Ukraine and Israel but lets continue ignoring the homeless right here in our own country. Let's bring in massive immigration and raise the price of everything through inflation and taxes. Let's make it unaffordable to buy a home, which is entirely the fault of this depraved government of ours. People in power who passed those laws that allowed Chinese citizens to buy houses in Vancouver where they sit empty. 

Few people know that China actually can buy and operate companies in Canada and not only that, but PROTECT those companies with their own military.

WITHIN OUR BORDERS.

I just did a quick internet search and of course you can't find the results. They're buried. Plenty of "fact checker" propaganda articles are on the first several pages. Who knows where the real information is. I'm too tired to bother but I'm 100% certain about what I just wrote.

Tired of it all. 

No real safe places to go to in my opinion. Europe is a mess. Australia has it bad. Forget New Zealand. Not going to Africa. Parts of South America aren't that great but... I guess Mexico, El Salvador and Costa Rica are decent candidates.

But how long for? What's the next thing that's going to happen? There's always something.

And its sad how much has happened that people have long forgotten about. Remember Sri Lanka and how they collapsed? Citizens storming the presidential palace and having to use QR codes to buy fuel because it was rationed? Why don't we hear anything about Sri Lanka anymore? Was it not as bad as it seemed? Weren't they bankrupt? Didn't they need a bail out? I thought there were roving gangs and barricaded streets at one point.

I guess it's still pretty bad. Only 1 in 20 homes have a functioning toilet if you can believe it.

I'm thinking that the idea of a global government is good in some ways but terrible in others. Global unity and cooperation is a fantastic idea on the surface until you realize how many predators are up top controlling the strings of the puppets below. 

In high school while I was thinking about aliens, I thought it would be a good idea for them to reveal themselves. The whole world would set aside their differences and come together.

Just like Reagan said.

And it made sense to me at the time. I thought wars would be over. There would be no need to spend money on the military.

Unfortunately, we are moving into an AI managed future and these are going to be our new military/police:

California approved the use of these robot dogs despite public protest. What do you expect when THIS is the kind of people making these decisions?

Bunch of clowns. WOMEN, actually. One that is obese and looks like she watches Sex in the City and another one up there with the intelligence to wear a mask when no one else is. Then that one in the glasses reminds me of the typical ignorant liberal who follows trends and doesn't think for herself.

I bet dollars to doughnuts that none of these women have a CLUE about how anything works. Think that lady studied Plato? Has she thought long and hard about the decisions she's making or were those decisions already made for her? I doubt she spent much time going over the ramifications of it all and canvassing the public that supposedly elected her to this privileged position. She doesn't know a single thing about robotics I can tell you that much. Let alone having foresight and imagination to understand how much of a serious precedent this is setting.

It's a farce. A complete joke. We are being ruled by morons.

A couple of years ago I thought I could do a good job running for a position on city council because NONE of the candidates seemed to have any critical thinking skills. One guy wanted to build EV charging stations. In a small city of 25,000 people with NO electric cars that I've ever seen in the time that I lived there.

Reminds me of that one fellow who showed up to my door saying he was running for office. It was a KID not more than 22 years old! He was proud to say he was campaigning on bringing buses to Fort Sask when I told him that it would be a bad idea. Everything is mostly within walking and biking distance. Oh, but he said, seniors would appreciate it. I told them they already have services for seniors to get to their medical appointments and why would we need buses constantly going around and wasting our money? Hardly anyone will use them.

Fast forward a year later after the buses arrived and guess what? Almost always empty. I've ridden it a few times and I've never seen more than three people. Friendly bus driver though. Guess he liked to talk to me because of hardly anyone was using these things.

But that's government for you. Wasting our money on frivolous and damaging ideas.

In my time living in Fort Sask, I could really see how stupid it all was on the local level. Federal is even worse. 

And those that get into positions of power aren't there because of the will of the people. I look at Trudeau who got less than 25% support in the last election and had to team up with the NDP to get the Liberal's bills passed. Censorship laws, more spending, more waste. Crying about non-existent climate change and having to protect transgenders.

All the while waving in as many immigrants as possible and setting them up with thousands of dollars a month. New cars. Places to live. All on our dime.

A global government is going to mean enslavement for us all. But you know what? I think we pretty much already have a global government. Possibly for decades already. They're just keeping it a secret and playing their part out like the good little actors they are. 

Wasn't it in 2011 we were supposed to be worried about nukes coming from North Korea? Funny how that resolved itself. We were supposed to be worried about Iran back then too. We were told Iraq had WMDs but nope.

They didn't.

That man should be charged with war crimes. His entire administration. Cheney, Powell, Rice, Rumsfeld. Blatant liars. All of them.

And twenty years later we just don't think about it. Nobody brings it up. Even if people did bring it up, nothing will happen. Who is going to charge and convict them? Who?

Israel was convicted of 52 war crimes committed against the Palestinians. Each time the Americans used their veto power through the UN to absolve them of their wickedness.

That picture above is Gaza after being bombed by Israeli airstrikes. 

In 2021.

Like I asked yesterday, when have we ever been truly free?

Evil walks among us and good men and women cannot seem to do anything other than to spread awareness. Which most people don't seem to care about acquiring.

It doesn't matter if everyone knows by now that the invasion of Iraq was unjustified and based on a lie.

Nothing is going to happen!

NOTHING.

And in this new age of deep fake AI that can impersonate anyone, even if they showed the public a televised prosecution and execution of Bush, it doesn't have to be real. They could move that guy to some backwater country, keep him safe with secret service, make sure the media and locals aren't filming him and that's that. 

They could generate fake footage of him sitting in a jail cell.

Who would ever know?

And what would it matter anyways? What if that DID happen? Twenty years too late. 

Damage already done.

Think about the blood on that man's hands. All of the hundreds of thousands of men, women and children massacred while he gets a standing ovation tossing a baseball at the world series.

The absolute ignorance of people cheering this mass murderer on when they should be walking out.

Wonder how many Iraqis cheered when they were liberated under "shock and awe" back then.

I knew something was wrong back then watching all this as a young adult. This gulf storm crap didn't make any sense to me. What did Iraq do to deserve it? 

Oh, right. Saddam wanted to get off the U.S. petrodollar. Funny how Assad and Gaddafi both wanted to do the same. No wonder the US military had to get involved.

And Gaddafi was doing great things for the people of Libya.

But the American military industrial Zionist complex couldn't allow that. 

https://www.bitchute.com/video/GmN3YiuViHGW/

So they dangled their puppets around on a string and made the problem disappear.

It's such an ugly world we live in. So much of the facts I've dropped don't seem to register in the minds of people. It's not being taught to our kids. It's not going to be in the textbooks they read.

Books like this one, should be taught in public schools.

A History of Central Banking and the Enslavement of Mankind

And last night I had to educate someone on Reddit who started a thread suggesting that we needed more immigration to solve the inflation crisis. I figured it was a young kid. He blamed parents/boomers for the debts that governments and central banks are responsible for.

He didn't seem to know how much money the government has printed the last three years. 

Most people don't seem to know who the true enemy is. Most people are uneducated.

I am not even an economist but I can tell you enough about modern monetary theory to show that I have a proper understanding of the subject. I've traded stocks, I've seen how manipulated and rigged the markets are. I didn't have to go to school to learn any of it. All I did was pay attention and follow my curiosity.

Just like everyone should be paying attention and following their curiosity. 

Why wasn't anyone curious as to how THIS happened on 9/11?

And look at the YouTube comments. Some of them ARE still ignorant.

@WPC32 days ago

You didn't mention the 6,000 gallons of diesel fuel stored on a low floor in the building. It was the city's Office of Emergency Management, and the fuel was to run generators in case of a power outage. It is not unconceivable that the combination of the damage from falling debris and the burning of 6,000 gallons of diesel caused the collapse after burning all day.

THIS is why humanity is doomed. It's not like these are dumb low-IQ people making these comments. They have intelligence but why the hell can't they critically THINK against what the official narrative presents?

Are they real people? Was that comment from a 3 letter agency maybe, trying to still keep the perception going that this wasn't an inside job? That somehow building 7 falls into its own footprint without being hit by a plane and not having much fire inside of it? 

NO SKYSCRAPER HAS EVER FALLEN INTO IT'S OWN FOOTPRINT IN ALL OF RECORDED HISTORY DUE TO A FIRE. NONE! NONE NONE NONE.

Except on 9/11 THREE OF THEM DID. 

But nobody bats an eye. Nobody thought it was curious enough to investigate or to wonder how a passport from a hijacker of the plane was miraculously found on the ground.

I don't know man. 

I hesitate to call people stupid because I know a lot of academics who refuse to believe the "conspiracy" theorists and their explanation but can believe an absolutely rubbish explanation from the government.

They're okay with getting only two or three frames of footage of the "plane" that hit the Pentagon. The most heavily guarded and surveilled building in America next to the White House.

Yeah, okay. That sure looks like a plane to me. Now who are the Steelers playing tonight Martha? Gotta get the chips and brewskis together cause the boys are coming by.

I'm embarrassed to call myself a human being. I truly am. 

Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.

Yet, people have been fooled multiple times and they're still allowing themselves to be fooled.

Not just young folks but older ones too. Ones that lived through the BS that was the Kennedy assassination and the magic bullet that zipped around in all those directions but was found in pristine condition on the stretcher.

Look at that thing. Perfect condition. 

And this is what Wikipedia has to say about it. A clearly biased source.

The autopsy found that Kennedy was hit by two bullets. One entered his upper back and exited below his neck, albeit obscured by a tracheotomy. The other bullet struck Kennedy in the back of his head and exited the front of his skull in a large exit wound. The trajectory of the latter bullet was marked by bullet fragments throughout his brain. The former bullet was not found during the autopsy, but was discovered at Parkland Memorial Hospital in Dallas. It later became the subject of the Warren Commission's single-bullet theory, often derided as the "magic-bullet theory" by conspiracy theorists.

"Conspiracy theorists" notice that? Anyone who questions what happened is a "conspiracy theorist" and are then derided and dismissed by the general public because they are too scared to explore and embrace truth for themselves.

"Gawsh, I sure ain't gonna be one of them conspiracy theorists! They think the Earth is flat!"

Shame what we have become. How many of us have turned a blind eye to what is going on in this world. Shame on those who think watching hockey and cheering on "their" team means anything important or meaningful when most of the players aren't even born in the city they're playing for. Oh, and they get paid millions of dollars to do it. Forget firefighters, paramedics and teachers. These are the TRUE heroes of our society and their pay reflects that.

Along with celebrities like Cardi B and Kim Kardashian.

What an embarrassment the human race has become.

There are still good people out there. Some who don't use social media. Some who don't waste their time watching sports and porn and reality shows. Some who haven't been brainwashed and are brave enough to speak the truth.

But there's not many.

And I think we are shrinking in numbers. Critical thinking is not being taught in government indoctrination camps and we are raising children to become obedient and subservient to the system.

Some people are homeschooling, sure. That's good. If you can afford to do so.

But we are outnumbered by the rest of humanity who doesn't have the least bit interest in what is truly going on in this world. Not 9/11, not Covid, not JFK, not Roswell, not Near Death Experiences.

They just want to be a part of the system.

And they'll complain about all of the wrong things. They'll think that voting matters and that we need to be mad at x, y and z without realizing where their true focus should be placed upon and who the enemy actually is.

The scary part is that after all of my research and studying, I now understand that there are multiple enemies. 

It's not just the central banks. The IMF, the WHO, the UN, BIS.

It's not just the Rockefellers, the Rothschilds, the Payseurs or the royal family.

It's not just the Vatican, the Deep State, the Freemasons and Skull and Bones.

It's not just the Trilateral commission, the Council on Foreign Relations, the Bilderberg and Carlye Group.

It goes above all of those. Above Blackrock and Vanguard and State Street.

It goes into the dark clouds where shadowy figures roam. People or entities that we will not ever get to know the names of because they control it all and are not to be reported upon in the media.

And...

There's not much hope for us to be honest. Not many people care enough to research and know these things. Even if they did know it, what good would it do against a titan like the BIS? Or Bill Gates? George Soros?

Even if everyone knows that Bush started an unjustified war of terror against Iraqi citizens and murdered their president, what good will it do?

What good will it do if everyone knows?

Serious question.

Maybe teachers would behave differently? But they aren't setting the curriculum in schools.

Maybe doctors will behave differently? But they don't set the policies and rules they have to abide by upon threat of losing their license.

Maybe police officers will behave differently? They are only as good as the legal system, so will judges behave differently? What if the judges are offered a large amount of money to steer them a certain way? What if pressure comes upon those judges from even higher levels?

It's all a mess. A big tangled ball of yarn. 

And I wonder. I wonder what could fix all this. Some say when Jesus returns it will be dealt with. But how?

He comes down from the clouds and then what?

Every knee will bow? Including the IMF? The Rockafellers? The shadowy entities above them? 

Will they all withdraw their influence? Stop meddling in the affairs of human kind?

Let's say that they do. Let's say that they are scared shitless and do withdraw their support. Then what? Are central banks still going to be around? Will housing prices come down to affordable levels? Will illegal immigration stop or will we have open borders? What about the military? Will there be a need for them? If not, what will they do for work? How are they going to feed their families? What will all the employees do if Raytheon shuts down due to a lack of war?

The only result I can see from all of this if Jesus arrives and wishes to fix everything is total chaos.

Not everyone on this planet is going to be convinced that it's really him. Assuming he arrives in physical form. They'll call him the anti-christ or a deep fake. Project bluebeam. A psyop.

But assume everyone believes, this means society is going to go into free fall. It'll mean actually needing to take care of one another without the existence of jobs or money.

This is why certain people are prepping for an off-grid lifestyle. This can only result in two ways.

Continued and escalated oppression of human rights and values.

Or a complete collapse of governmental structure.

Either outcome is terrible although the latter has to be done in order to rebuild a better society.

But how will this better society be built assuming a governmental collapse?

It means... starting from scratch. The founding fathers of America were eloquent and thoughtful in how they drafted the constitution and implementing the checks and balances in government.

How many people today are at all on the same intellectual level as those men? Most kids can't even write in cursive. Let alone be able to tell what time it is on an analog clock that's hanging on the wall.

So...

If democracy failed. If a constitutional republic failed. If communism failed.

What's left? Monarchy?

Personally I prefer a meritocracy but...

I don't think it's going to happen. Maybe, maybe not.

Maybe artificial intelligence will be our new God. Maybe it will take over all the functions of government and everything else. Leaving people with universal basic income and that's that.

But I doubt it.

Maybe the aliens will come and give us a new system. 

But I doubt that too. 

So many of us are unaware of just how serious these times are. There is no getting out from all this. We are not going to suddenly see a reversal and a path towards prosperity unless something drastic happens.

Which is why I think a "false awakening" may come soon. Where all truth is revealed and the solution will be to have AI running the show. If it isn't already.

But the AI is not going to be autonomous. It will have a group behind it. A group of technocrats that will benefit themselves and those within their clique. Another big club. 

Rome never ended, it just re-branded itself into the Vatican.

I think we are going to see the same here soon.

I'm pretty tired of all this. Humanity has been enslaved and will continue to be enslaved.

We are not going to be in the golden age anytime soon.

We are at the precipice. We need soldiers of truth now more than ever but... even speaking the truth will not get us to take the BIS down. The IMF. The WHO.

The media is compromised. The internet is compromised.

Dissent will not be tolerated. The spectrum of discourse will be held to a narrow band.

Sighs.

This hurts my heart terribly. All we can hope for is to create a parallel system that is independent of government jurisdiction and control.

Only a small number of us will be able to survive this.

And a smaller number might be able to rebuild civilization should it all collapse.

But I don't think it is going to collapse.

I think we are going to see the dystopian outcome play out.

Collapse or enslavement seem to be the only two possibilities.

Both are terrible but collapse is necessary.

Maybe humanity is done. Maybe this is it. 

I just wish...

I just wish I could have hosted Karlee in my old house.

We would've made better memories together.

She deserves it.

And so do I.

Sighs.

It's a dark Monday and now I must sleep.

To get up and do it all over again.

Waiting for this suffering to end.

Broke and Battered

The more I look into the state of the world, the more I am realizing that humanity is being treated like cattle.

When have we ever been truly free? The 1950s, kinda? Well... It was the decade after recovering from a brutal world war but were we truly free to move and live as we pleased?

Without being under the thumb of the government?

Serfdom was a form of control also, prior to the wars. Farmers were taxed. They couldn't get ahead far in life so were pretty much left alone.

But... I'm seeing that we have been reduced to commodities. Our birth certificates are sold on the market with an assigned value to each of them. Weird as it sounds.

An excerpt:

Then why is income tax money collected if it is not used as government money to pay for government expenses?  Your federal income taxes do not go towards financing the operation of your country. United States citizens pay their taxes to the Internal Revenue Service (IRS). The IRS is not an agency of the US federal government.  It is an agency of the International Monetary Fund (IMF). Canadian citizens pay their taxes to the Canada Revenue Agency (CRA). Likewise, the CRA is not an agency of the federal government. It too is an agency of the IMF. All income taxes paid by all Americans and all Canadians eventually end up being deposited with the World Bank/IMF.

Let's research this part because I am intrigued. The IRS is an agency of the IMF and so is the CRA?

I've just wasted a half hour trying to find evidence and haven't been successful. I did get to looking at IMF numbers and boy, it looks like America is in a world of poop as far as being in debt goes. Worst of the worst by more than 3 times the 2nd place country which is China.

But, no. We are not free. Our birth certificates are bonds that are valued and used as an instrument of exchange. The more populated a country is, allegedly the more wealth it has through these bonds. Hence the flood of immigration coming in and jacking up the numbers for illegals who then become citizens.

I'm not keen on talking financial stuff in this post. I just know that we are in a financial meltdown.

50 cents went a long ways in the 1950s. You could buy five bottles of pop with that money. Now, you can't even afford one. Purchasing power has been on the decline ever since.

How do you like them apples? Bet you could buy a whole basket of them for less than a quarter in the 50s.

Look at this:

According to the U.S. Bureau of Labor Statistics, prices for apples are 2,018.32% higher in 2023 versus 1950 (a $26.44 difference in value).

Oh, JUST 2,018% higher? Wow. What was the average wage at the time?

Ah, here it is. 

During the 1950s, the United States was experiencing a period of rapid change. According to a 1959 Department of Labor survey, nonsupervisory and office workers made between $1 and $3 per hour. 

Let's go with the lower number. A dollar an hour. 

8 hours a day, 5 days a week = $40 a week

What can someone buy with $40 in the 1950s? Let's see what a typical house costs first.

One week of wages, at the lowest average of $1 an hour equals to making a mortgage payment on a nice home in about one and a half weeks of work. Not bad.

A loaf of bread was 14 cents. With one day's labor at the lowest average wage of $1/hr equals six loaves of bread per hour.

What about today? The minimum wage of the average American is... wait for it because this is crazy.

$7.25 an hour.

I told you it was crazy. Got it from here. 

How many loaves of bread can one buy with that per hour? Assuming no taxes deducted?

The price of a loaf varies between $1.65 and $5.98 in Hawaii.

My laptop battery is dying. I better make this quick.

If you lived in Hawaii, that's one loaf per hour.

In Nevada, it would be 4. That doesn't sound too bad except you don't want to know what an average mortgage payment is in Nevada do you?

Of course you do. It's $1,950 to rent an apartment. Forget about houses. An apartment.

That $7.25 an hour is about $50 a day. 5 days equals $250. 

Not even close to making the monthly payment for that apartment.

Not close at all to even making the payment for an entire month of work. You still need to earn double the minimum wage just to have a roof over your head. Never mind the loaves of bread. It's either eat or have a roof over your head. Which will it be?

It sucks. A reset is going to happen and we're really going to be screwed when it does. They'll make it out to look like a good thing with possible debt forgiveness but of course, conditions apply.

Probably won't be able to own your own house. You'll be renting it. At a reduced rate of course.

People will no longer be able to build up equity.

I don't like it here.

Get me out.

Get everyone out.